Sunday, 25 July 2010

IS LESS REALLY MORE OR IS TOO MUCH MORE THAN ENOUGH?

A confusing question and one about which I’ll try not to brood... be amused or bemused might be more appropriate.

Let me explain. I’ve got a new 'thing' going on: one of those cautious (on my part) slow-builds that started as an absent-minded little hum and has fast developed into a full-blown heart ballad complete with gospel choir, a thousand strings and a brass and timpani section which is threatening to deafen me with the power of its persuasion.

I am being Right Royally Seduced.

I’ve played this game before, allowed myself to become 'involved' with a stranger - and yet...and yet...I can't help it if the songbirds are tweeting:

Maybe this time, I'll be lucky
Maybe this time, he'll stay
Maybe this time
For the first time
Love won't hurry away

He will hold me fast
I'll be home at last
Not a loser anymore
Like the last time
And the time before...


He’s foreign which accounts for him being so much more romantic. The best man in my life was foreign ... he didn’t think with his bowler hat or rolled umbrella but with the more earthy and visceral parts of himself.

He thought with his hands and his heart, his fingers, his toes and his tongue - not in the more obvious carnal way but in a subliminally intrusive yet much more subtle way – the way a bee approaches a flower and drinks its nectar without the flower even realising that it’s relinquished the most precious part of itself and given it willingly.

And so it is with us. Him: so full on and so eager, me: attempting to decline yet longing to submit.

Stendhal always comes to mind at times like these:

Love has nothing to do with the beloved person and everything to do with the lover’s imagination. The passion that transports us is our own.

We have not yet met but how dangerous is this divulging of thoughts and feelings across the waves of cyberspace? Every man I've had to do with has taken a little part of me as he's travelled through, but I've usually managed to grow it back with nobs on. A plant is pruned in order for it to flower again the following spring bigger and better than before.

Anyway, you know me – I always keep a little in reserve and never fully lose my head. My legs may be flung high up in the air but my feet are always planted firmly on the ground. And we're both aware that the pedestal we've placed each other on will crumble if the chemistry fails to connect.

So for now, I’ll dream, and if the dream becomes reality, then I shall be all the richer. And if it doesn’t, no harm done. He’s made me smile and made me write so thank you, S, at least for that.

The rest remains to be seen, felt and tasted. . .but with all this travelling to do, the question is: WHEN??

16 comments:

Wild Willie o' Orkney said...

Cor...THAT sounds more like Barbara Cartland than 'Our Wendy'!Has 'S' found your Achillies' heel he wonders? Anyway,(as always)best of luck on your current (ad)venture;and if the worst comes to the worst - there's always another story in it!

P.S. You got yourself a Japanese dictionary yet? - S/he's certainly persistent!

Wendy Salisbury said...

Don't let it bother you Willie, it's still me inside the pink taffeta tea dress and fluffy mules!

The Japanese comments are from different people, I believe, but it drives me nuts not being able to understand them.

I've asked for some translations because if they can read me, they should be able to speak English - but they probably don't have a Latin/Roman keyboard.

I wish they'd get one as I'd love to know what they're saying.....

Hope your summer's going well,

W x

Wild Willie o' Orkney said...

Well, thank gawd for that! For a brief moment I thought you'd gone all soppy and drifting into 'lurve' mode!
Summer just great here, altho' could do with just a few more degrees - but going to E'burgh for the Fest. next week which will be much warmer.
My 'pooter boffin told me not to open any mail containing Asian characters, as they often contain malicious software.Lovely calligraphy tho'! Wx

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Wendy Salisbury said...

I'll be at Fringe Fest from 23rd-28th. I go every year. Love it! Let me know if you see anything spectacular though I already have about 35 shows booked!

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Drained said...

Hi Ive juets meet an older woman :), In the strangest of places.. Shock horrer the internet..


I havent meet her weve spent hours talking its nice.. women my own age arnt as easy to talk to they havent learned about how important being daft is...

tho il say one thing I hate being called a toy boy...

Drained said...

Hi Ive juets meet an older woman :), In the strangest of places.. Shock horrer the internet..


I havent meet her weve spent hours talking its nice.. women my own age arnt as easy to talk to they havent learned about how important being daft is...

tho il say one thing I hate being called a toy boy...

萬建彰宇 said...

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家唐銘 said...

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Subtlety is better than force. ......................................................................

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不會從失敗中找尋教訓的人,成功之路是遙遠的。.................................................

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may the blessing be always with you!!............................................................